Sad day...

I have been trying to motivate myself to come up with a fun post for everyone.  Something more on the arts and craft side of things.  I really do love to share my little home projects with everyone whether it be cooking, drawing, or crafting.  I haven't really been all that motivated to do any of these things though.  I did draw for a while on Sunday but then I just started to clean house which I sometimes find is an easy way for me to relax and let go of some of my troubling thoughts.  This relaxation was short lived though.  For the last week I have been burdened with the fact that I once again have to find a new job.

This time it is particularly hard since I genuinely like my job.  I would even go so far as to say I love it.  I love being a nanny I love working with kids and I really like the family that I am working for.  Unfortunately do to personal financial hardships for the family they will no longer be able to afford to keep a nanny.  So now I have to find a job... again.  I am hoping to find another nanny position but I have to admit just the idea of having to go through the application process of this on various websites again is draining my energy already.

The websites I used before care.com, sittercity.com while are amazing tools to have at your fingertips are also riddled with scammers.  Malicious links trying to infect your computer, to people who will actually attempt to scam you out of money, and of course the REAL scary ones that want to meet but give you the heeby-geebs just from reading their messages.  Then there is the interview process which is another hardship on its own.  Just getting to the interview stage is hard enough but then meeting with these different families and knowing that they are going to hire upon not only experience but your personality as well in the hopes that you will fit well with there family.  I have always been nervous at interviews sure but when I started trying to find a job as a nanny I had that sudden realization that the majority of their decision experience aside will be on how they think of me as a person, if I am fit to care for their children.  For some reason this just made it that much more nerve racking for me.

So this is my last week with the family I work for now and I am sad to have to leave them.  Nerves are on end with trying to find a new job.  Hopefully I will find something soon.  I have already had a few families reply to me.  So we shall see.  I would really like to not have to get another job in retail.  Bleh!

I hope that all of you are having a nice week so far.  Time for me to hit the pillows.  Good night and pleasant dreams.

-Nadine