Well my boyfriend asked me to drive today in his car for the first time since then. I didn't even put up a fight I simply said sure like I wasn't internally screaming 'Nooooooo this is wrong!'. So we go and all goes well until we are, oh I don't know maybe a mile from home. No nothing horrible happened. Just little things that grated across my already strung out nerves. Probably the worst thing being that when I had to open the door to reach and punch in our gate code I accidentally hit the box with the car door.
My boyfriend didn't say anything really but any form of self motivation I had been chanting in my head to make this driving experience seem like it was going great was shattered into a hundred little pieces. I felt like an instant dufus, and my stress level jumped up to a high, still trying to get myself to relax. When I get upset or nervous my neck and shoulders tense up and tend to stay that way for quite some time. Luckily there is no scratch or dent and I am trying not to obsess over it but well... I think I should make myself some tea.
Anyways I am trying to see this as a triumph instead of focusing on the negative. I don't want to revert after all. So next time I am asked to drive I will bite my tongue, hop on the broom and just go with it. Lol!
Have a very good night everyone and I hope that you all wake feeling refreshed and ready to tackle any challenge you may be faced with tomorrow.