So I feel like I should explain myself after last nights little tantrum. I won't go into too much detail as it does have to do with my job and I can't help the personal feeling of unprofessional-ism that comes with the idea of 'gossiping' about my current employers.
I will say... they are driving me crazy?
A lot of... whats the word.... inconsistency of sorts. I have been working... alot. 47+ hours a week since starting this new job and being offered 'full time'. I guess I hadn't realized it would be more like full time plus over time without the pay. So that is a bit more than I am used to but... the hours keep piling on last minute and that is starting to wear down on me. Along with EXTREMELY last minute schedule changes. I don't really understand how its ok? Like... I am headed home for the night on the porch at 9:30 p.m. and get told I need to be there the next morning at 8 a.m. to work a 10 hour day when I expected to have the day off, sort of last minute. Keep in mind it takes me 35-40 minutes to get home from their house so it was a really late night, and a really long following day.
I also haven't connected with the family at all. In fact there is a lot... I disagree with? Which makes my job difficult to do. Just a lot of little things turning into bigger things... and weighing me down.
I think what hit the nail on the head for me was this. I requested two days off. Now I know that I have just started this job. But this was discussed in my interview and was agreed that if I give decent notice its not an issue. So I asked for these two days 2 months in advance. And was immediately shot down, spoken to like a was a child, and had my job in a way threatened. Which I have to say shook my composure enough but then was told that the schedule is set all the way until 2015 and that there is no room for things like this...
Any normal full time job you can request a day or two here and there and usually its not an issue especially if you request it well in advance. This isn't the first full time position that I have ever had so I would know. You can request time off with proper notice, vacation time, sick days... I mean... must I explain?
So to be told that for the next year my life is 47+ hour work weeks with no option of requesting any time off? I mean don't get me wrong I am not the type to make a habit of taking days off. I usually work through being sick (depending on how bad it is since I do work with kids), if I do need/want a day off I always try to give months notice. In my work history there has literally only been once where I request 4 days off in a row and that was when I was working a part time job, and I requested it 4 months in advance.
It was extremely frustrating, but I think what made it so bad was just the way I was talked to.
I don't understand how some people get into a mind set that it is alright to walk all over others.
So that is all I am gunna say. Excuse my rant. I am feeling slightly better today I guess. Still down in the dumps I guess and unsure of what to do.
I hope you are all well.