Well here I am again wondering where to start since it has been so long since the last time I wrote anything. I am sorry for my absence. Things have been.... well it hard to say. Things are going really really well in the bigger picture. For a while there I just lost the drive to come up with posts. I wasn't very happy with my daily life I am sure all of you who keep up with my blog will remember I said my family and I are going through some hard times. Plus in all reality there really just wasn't a whole heck of a lot to write about. I think that was one of the things that was so discouraging. Life just... was at a stand still. We weren't happy with where we were living, the people around us. It was just one be gloomy endless cycle and I didn't want to write about it.
So I won't... :P
There are a few things that I feel I have to tell you guys about that aren't I guess very happy news. First I am no longer with Matt. I almost feel silly... maybe embarrassed? I made such passionate post about him and my feelings for him just to come to my own realization that he was in fact not the right person for me. It happened all in such a short period of time as well. He is a very good man... just not the right one? Not for me at least. We both have very different....
You know... never mind. I don't think it is really necessary or appropriate to explain the reasons behind my decision. Just know that I am happy and I feel I did the right thing for us both in the long run.
Things as far as my Mother's divorce are still working themselves out but hopefully coming to a close soon. Things are looking bright and hopefully everything comes out for the best for every one.
I am still working at Sam's Club. =/
Ok enough of the bleugh news.
What is super exciting that I want to tell you guys about is that Mom, Cait and I are moving into a new apartment of our own! We are super excited. It is going to be so great to finally have a place to call home and a place that is our own. Its been over half a year now and I think I can speak for the three of us when I say we are giddy with excitement and can barely contain it. I plan to take a ton of pictures of the place for all of you once we have it all set up. Its going to be great to be somewhere that is OUR PLACE. Decorated the way we want, plants everywhere, open, bright, cozy. Gah I can't wait. Our move in date is the 19th of this month. It was supposed to be the 10th but there was a little bump in the road and the date had to be pushed back.
I am especially excited for Cait. Its hard for her as a 9 year old. She is very mature and I am extremely proud of her. Having to stay with friends though and not having a place that she can call home, the lack of privacy, just all the change has really taken a tole on her. I have to admit that "little bump" I mentioned with our move in day, well she was so dis-heartened I could see she was putting all her effort into not crying. I ended up laying with her in a dark room to let her relax and calm down for nearly an hour. I was seeing red at that point. Have no fear though I calmed down and went back leveled headed and got everything straightened out and it is looking like it will be better now anyways.
That is about it for now. I am 'hoping' once we are in our new place I will be more encouraged to post. Right now I don't always have access to my computer though. I have been staying with a friend a lot lately and leaving my computer for my Mom. Anyways I hope you all are doing well.
Best of wishes,